Two Puppies

Last night I went to a friend's place for dinner. I had a great time playing with her dogs, Ding Ding & Dau Dau, and watching them play among themselves.

Ding Ding is the smaller female puppy, Dau Dau is the older male. I watched how Dau Dau, even when chilling on the other side of the room/ sofa, stuck his head out to see what Ding Ding was doing, and how he would turn around when running to check on Ding Ding..... And for a second I thought to myself, I still want a boyfriend who'd look out for me like that, so naturally, out of love and concern.

It still saddens me how someone judged me to be too demanding hence still single.  I know I shouldn't care how others think but I do in this regards because I tried so hard to protect and grow my past few relationships, especially the last serious one.  Up till this day, I occasionally still break down crying when I recall vividly some of the scenes where I was feeling extremely hurt and heartbroken.  I still remember how I stood crying in Stanley Street when someone walked away from me out of anger. 

Today, I had a movie date.  The guy was already a bit quiet before the movie, probably because last night when he called to ask if I would give him a chance, I told him I felt like it was better to just stay friends for now.  When we arrived at the theater, he suddenly turned and walked away, towards the elevator!  I stood there, eyes wide open, jaw dropped, not believing what was happening.  He walked back and said he didn't feel like watching the movie anymore.  Still jaw dropping and stunned, I told him I was shocked he thought he could treat a girl like that.  Yes he has a right to his emotions, but it's extremely horrible to cancel a "date" last minute - right in front of the cinema - because of his mood!  I cannot believe at this age, I had to control my anger and try to calmly explain to a grown man why it was not right to walk out on a girl like that, why it was childish, immature, juvenile.  He apologized many times after that, and asked if I would still give him a chance.  Why should it be my job to tell guys how they should treat me, respect me, not hurt my feelings, not make me cry, not walk out on me?