This morning, I dreamed of breaking up with Kevin (all over again) who lived with me in the attic of a house. In the dream, I went to find my friend, Dawn, for emotional support, and she walked me to the home I shared with Kevin (in the dream).
I vaguely remember it was a bit emotional, but far less than the actual breakup I experienced. In the dream, I was trying so hard to think of ways to communicate with him, to calm him down.
I didn't cry after I woke up from the dream. Just a hint of sadness, experiencing the breakup again.
I still feel very sorry about the breakup because I can be with someone else and in similar situations as before when I was with Kevin, yet not end up in fights at all. Or any silly fights can be easily resolved within hours. I feel very sorry every single disagreement seemed like such a big deal. I feel sorry we didn't have a happy ending. I wanted so much to have a happy life with him.
Now I'm in tears.
"HUGZ"
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