Relationship Pros

I am fearful of relationships, but I remember enjoying ...

Someone's effort to make me giggle, laugh, smile...
effort to make sure I eat well everyday...
cuddling, stroking of my hair...
inspiring chats...
sharing of great days...
sharing of terrible days...
passionate kisses in the first month...
telling me I made him happy...
looking happy...
telling me he'd stand by me through thick and thin and never let go...

I miss all these but I don't really believe in all these anymore, that's why I don't want to be in a relationship again... perhaps ever.

Relationship Cons

I have good reasons for being fearful of relationships.

I don't want to fight for anyone's attention,
or time,
priority,
devotion,
love.

These are all "given" at the beginning of a relationship, and gradually one has to beg for them.  I don't want that.  Not anymore.

Mid-Year Resolutions

Today, I decided that it was about time to set the following as my new resolutions for the rest of the year:

Be Humble.

Accept constructive criticisms with an open mind.

Be mindful of the way I voice my opinion/ discontent.  Directness can be achieved not necessarily through an angry, defensive tone.

Understanding and Respect

Last weekend I went to my dear friend's wedding and I was one of the bridesmaids.  During the wedding ceremony the pastor talked about understanding and respect.

He said that a husband needs to be understanding - understanding does not mean one necessarily needs to understand everything.  The wife will have her adorable, endearing days, and occasionally bad days.  During those bad days, a husband needs to be understanding and accepting, and continue loving the wife for who she is.

The wife, on the other hand, needs to respect her husband and be his number one fan always.  She needs to support her husband in everything he does, and make him feel confident and proud.

I found the advice true and practical.